I realized I was really scared with the hospital since I was kid..I scared with the people including the patients, nurses and doctors..I scared with the smell of the hospital..I scared with blood..I scared with dead peoples..and every time I went there..I will have stomachache without no reason..ha ha..and that is why I don't like to be in the hospital..
My ambition when I was kid is to being a doctor..even mak asked me to apply medic after I got my Pre-Degree result..but I can't..I was not strong enough to hold the big responsibilites because a doctor need to save people's life..and the other reason was also due to my phobia I think..ha ha..then I chose to further my study in Pharmacy..I just apply..because I love Chemistry then..he he..
Now..after three years..I realize ( once again..lol ) to become a pharmacist..I also have to hold a very big responsibilities..yes for sure I need to work in the hospital..I need to see patients which sometime in a horrible condition..and maybe I can caused death of my patients if I do mistakes..that's the most scariest part I think..hmm..
However..It is a shame if I am turning back now so I will keep looking forward..I am trying my best to overcome my weakness..and I hope I can get the strength to face all these things..
Next month..for the first time in my life..I will be going to the hospital and start my hospital attachment at Hospital Tunku Ampuan Rahimah Klang for 4 weeks..my friends told me that there were a lot on Banglas and Indons there..ha ha..I wish it will give me a lots of experiences and informations..
P/s : Sorry for the broken English..ha ha..I dont expect people will read this boring entry..but if you read this..thank you !! hee :)